100 Days of Happy - Day 5
Sep. 25th, 2016 11:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gluedwithgoldSo, yeah...I missed a few days.
Kinda had a crazy lousy weekend - my brain decided to put on it's devil mask and whisper all kinds of awful, nasty, horrible things in my ear for the past few days. That's the thing about depression - sometimes, no matter what you do, it'll pop up and chew on you for a little while...sometimes there's a trigger, sometimes there's not. You just have to keep fighting, keep trying whatever you can think of to pull yourself out. Sometimes what pulls you out can be the most random of things.
For me, this time, it was dragging myself out of bed to go to the store. I was on the verge of going to sleep (again - I did a lot of sleeping this weekend) and suddenly got a craving for gingerale. So, I got up, cleaned up, got dressed and headed out. When I turned the car on, Goodbye Stranger by Supertramp was playing on the stereo.
The song is significant to me because it triggered a pretty big realization for me a year or so ago - about saying goodbye to the stranger depression makes me become, embracing who I really am. Having it pop up at just this moment again was a good reminder of that, and went a long way toward pulling me out of the funk I've been in. Not that I'm totally out of the woods yet, but I'm feeling better and I've managed to mostly shut up that negativity in my brain. So it's a big step in the right direction.
So, that's my happy today. Goodbye Stranger by Supertramp.
Kinda had a crazy lousy weekend - my brain decided to put on it's devil mask and whisper all kinds of awful, nasty, horrible things in my ear for the past few days. That's the thing about depression - sometimes, no matter what you do, it'll pop up and chew on you for a little while...sometimes there's a trigger, sometimes there's not. You just have to keep fighting, keep trying whatever you can think of to pull yourself out. Sometimes what pulls you out can be the most random of things.
For me, this time, it was dragging myself out of bed to go to the store. I was on the verge of going to sleep (again - I did a lot of sleeping this weekend) and suddenly got a craving for gingerale. So, I got up, cleaned up, got dressed and headed out. When I turned the car on, Goodbye Stranger by Supertramp was playing on the stereo.
The song is significant to me because it triggered a pretty big realization for me a year or so ago - about saying goodbye to the stranger depression makes me become, embracing who I really am. Having it pop up at just this moment again was a good reminder of that, and went a long way toward pulling me out of the funk I've been in. Not that I'm totally out of the woods yet, but I'm feeling better and I've managed to mostly shut up that negativity in my brain. So it's a big step in the right direction.
So, that's my happy today. Goodbye Stranger by Supertramp.
