Aug. 21st, 2016

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My plan for this weekend was simple. Really. I was going to write. I was going to spend the weekend with my laptop and challenge myself to see how many words I could pump out. It was going to be great.


I managed to catch a case of insomnia this past week, and by Friday night I was exhausted. I went to bed early knowing my brain was in no condition to function and put together coherent thoughts, but...guess what? Still couldn't sleep. I was up until 3 a.m. Thinking about writing. This one story idea I have just latched onto my brain and would not let go. If I had a brain recorder, that I could then download and convert into text? The damn story would be 3/4 finished by now.

I did end up getting about 5 hours of sleep, and though not totally rested, I decided to go ahead with the plan and write my weekend away. I schlepped myself out of bed and got dressed, went out to get some groceries (writers need nourishment!) then headed back home.

And then. There. On my doorstep. A package.

I was confused - I hadn't ordered anything, wasn't expecting anything but bills and junk mail.
I picked it up and looked at the return address - MY FRIENDS SENT ME A PACKAGE! WOOHOO!!

Seeing as they'd just been to Minn Con the previous weekend, I expected they'd picked up some cool SPN schwag for me - because they are awesome like that! So I began tearing at the envelope (enormous, padded envelope, stuffed full). Hacked at it with scissors, got frustrated as hell and started cursing - until I noticed the pull-tab on the side. I ripped it open and pull out... another damn padded envelope! But this one was easier to open, and soon I was sliding the contents out. There was a card, addressed to me with much love from Sammie and Amanda (heart-eyes - of course - I love those two so much!). I turned over the object in my hand... identify it as a picture frame... I look at the photo in it... Jared Padalecki! (more heart-eyes!) But then... what's that? Is that? NO! It can't be! OH MY GOD WHAT DID THEY DO????


My eyes immediately start tearing up, and my hands start shaking. My wonderful, beautiful, amazing friends got an autograph for me! I tear into the card - which turns out to be a beautiful artwork by dephigravity from a fic I adore - and read all about how they missed me and wanted me to be at the con with them, they had an extra autograph from a package they'd bought and decided they needed to give it to me! There was also the story of the autograph itself - including sweetness, smiles and gummy bears (heart-eyes!) and a mention of the back of the frame (which I'd not noticed yet) - I turned the frame over and there were more messages from my friends on the back of the photo. By the time I finished reading everything, I'm literally crying. This package was filled with so much love and friendship it just blew me away!

You see, I am not "one of the popular kids" - I'm socially anxious and shy, which makes me pretty awkward, I tend to be very introverted as well as pretty closed off. I just don't connect with people. I don't create the bonds with other folks that make them miss me or think about me when I'm not around. So, even though I'm nearly 44 years old, this is the first time anyone has ever done something so meaningful for me. I connect with these two women on a deeper level than I have with anyone I've considered a friend before - the only comparable person in my life is my sister. It's fucking amazing.

So why am I blathering on about this on the internet? Because this is a perfect example of the power of the SPN Family, of fandom. People say you can't really make friends on the internet, that it's not real. Well, they're wrong. Through the internet, through the SPN Family, I have met true, absolutely amazing friends. I love them with my whole heart. They bring me joy every day, I am a better person for having them in my life, I like myself (dare I say - love myself?) more because of them. They give me inspiration, comfort, laughter, and always, always love.

So, thank you, [ profile] dancing_adrift and [ profile] non_tiembo_mala. Thank you for being you. Thank you for being amazing, wonderful, creative, funny, patient and kind. Thank you for loving me. I love you back a thousandfold. <3

So, needless to say, I didn't get much writing done this weekend - I was too busy squeeing and basking in the love of my friends. Although I am getting some words down tonight. Really! I am! I swear!

Top Left: Amanda and Sam; Bottom Left: Autographed photo of Jared Padalecki;
Top Right: card with artwork of Jared by dephigravity for dugindeep (hotsauce)'s Refracted
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1. Are you named after someone?
Nope. My parents just chose the most popular name they could find when I was born. (Seriously - high school English, FIVE girls named Jennifer in one classroom. My poor teacher about went insane.)

2. When was the last time you cried?
From happiness: yesterday, because my friends love me.
From sadness: four days ago, because I get stupidly emotional when I'm overtired and someone said something I took the wrong way and boom! waterworks.

3. Do you like your handwriting?
Everyone tells me I have beautiful handwriting, but I'm not so convinced. *side-eyes everyone*

4. What is your favorite lunch meat?
herb-roasted turkey *drools*

5. Do you have any kids?
Hell no. Don't want them. Probably can't have them.
(I do have cats, though, so - furkids!)

6. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
Probably? Maybe? I don't know! Why are you asking me such weird questions! *hyperventilates*

7. Do you use sarcasm?
I don't know what you're talking about.

8. Do you still have your tonsils?
I do. Unless I don't have tonsils. You never know - I could be some crazy tonsil-less freak. It might be my superpower.

9. Would you bungee?
No. Hell no. FUCK no. *plants feet firmly on the ground*

10. What is your favorite cereal?
Peanut Butter Cap'n Crunch FTW!!!

11 Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?

12. Do you think you’re strong?
I've recently come to believe I am. When you take stock of all the crap you've been through in your life, it's kind of hard not to come to that conclusion.

13. What is your favorite ice cream?
It's a toss up between mint chocolate chip and this one regional brand that has one called Espresso Therapy - espresso ice cream with chocolate covered almonds *drools more*

14. What’s the first thing you notice about someone?
Hair. Then lips.

15. Red or pink?
Umm...neither? Unless by red you mean a dark, rich burgundy, and then I'll go with red.

16. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
Procrastination. Which I'm doing right now, by filling this out. How ironic.

17. What color pants and shoes are you wearing right now?
I am barefoot and pantsless. How d'ya like me now?

18. What was the last thing you ate?
I'm currently snaking on donut holes.

19. What are you listening to right now?
The rain outside my window.

20. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
The darkest midnight blue.

21. What’s your favorite smell?
Autumn. Or coffee. Coffee in autumn!!

22. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Probably my dad, not sure.

23. What’s your favorite sport to watch?
Supernatural. (seriously - it's one hell of a marathon!)

24. What’s your real hair color?
Brown. Currently it's black though.

25. What’s your eye color?

26. Do you wear contacts?
No. Tried them once and had a seizure right there in the optometrist's office. So, it's the librarian look for me.

27. What’s your favorite food?
It changes with my mood, my currently level of motivation for getting healthy, and the seasons.
And I'm not going that in-depth, shut up!

28. Scary movie or happy ending?
Both! I just love stories....

29. Last movie you watched?
Brokeback Mountain. Fucking sad as fuck. Screw me and my catch-up-on-pop-culture-I-missed whims.

30. What color shirt are you wearing?

31. Summer or winter?
Fall. (I'm such a rebel.)
But if I had to choose, winter. Because summer sucks. Summer can go eat a dick.

32. Hugs or kisses?
Both. All the hugs, all the kisses. All the snuggles and cuddles and smooches and...
(wow I've been alone a long time *sheepish grin*)

33. What’s your favorite dessert?
Ice cream.

34. What book are you reading?
You what book did I start and not finish because of the siren call of fanfiction?
The Kick-Ass Writer by Chuck Wendig, and Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance by Robert Pirsig

35. What is your profile pic?
Anti-possession symbol. Because my LJ needs to be protected from demons, too.

36. What did you last watch on TV?
Supernatural. Dark Side of the Moon. Because apparently I felt like crying.

37. Favorite sound?
Okay. *unpacks her weirdness for all to see* The quiet of a snowy morning. Seriously. Love it. I wouldn't lie.

38. Rolling Stones or Beatles?

39. What is the farthest you’ve been from home?
Wisconsin. (Yes, that's a mere 1000 miles from home. *sobs*)

40. Do you have a special talent?
Does epic procrastination count?

41. Where were you born?
North Adams, Massachusetts. But only for as long as they kept newborns in the hospital in 1972, then I went home to Vermont. Where I still am.

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